I was twelve when I received the first channeled message; “You will write a book one day that will make a difference.” While I had no idea the message had been channeled from Elders who existed far beyond our earthly realm, it would haunt me for decades. It always sat just over my shoulder and it became a constant reminder. Totally unsure of the subject I was to use with this talent I didn’t know I had, I would search the world for decades looking for a way to fulfill it. Time would confirm that I had no suitable subject and that I could not write a book that might make a difference because – I was just as lost as everyone else.
I left home at nineteen to strike out on my own. This would begin an era I would come to call my 30 Years of Darkness. While I was searching for the subject of the book, life would become unstable and chaotic enough to ensure no such subject could possibly be uncovered. I would suffer many failed relationships in a mess of physical, mental and emotional abuses at the hands of the many who stomped through my life with their cork boots. Over those years, I would become more frustrated and angrier and fully aware of the many illusions and agendas of the outer world. Sadness and apathy followed. Still, that single message hovered just over my shoulder as if it was a beacon meant to shine on what was missing.
Then in 1999 a miracle event would change my direction and the meaning of everything. For the next two decades my search became even more intense as I focused on something else, something brand new. Suddenly I realized I had never truly looked at myself. The book, the one that would make a difference, would be about my own journey from a darkened past, a journey through the anger, resentment, frustration and hopelessness to one day spill out into the Light.
Plop! There it was – the book!